I've accepted the idea that my chronic depression is a terminal illness. A 'cancer' of thought and mood, if you will. I will fight it the best I can for as long as I can. I've been on multiple medications which debilitated me with their side effects and drove my suicidal ideations through the roof. I refuse medication now for this reason. I get plenty of rest. I started running, walking, and hitting the gym. I left an extremely unhealthy marriage. I've sought counseling and perused the internet and You tube for information and guidance. I eat healthy. These actions have helped me lose weight and correct my hypertension and diabetes. I recently participated in my first half marathon. I'm jumping through all the right hoops. I do feel better than I ever have but I still have periods of time where my mood plummets and I can't get out of bed. I don't want to die from this but I know my thought process during these episodes is skewed I fear that my bad thoughts will drive choices of behavior during these episodes and I will lose the battle against this disease. It's a frustrating and overwhelming situation. One day I simply won't have the energy to stay on top of this anymore. It just is what it is.
I want to add another thing, having a pet to take care of literally saved my life.
Getting up in the mornings instead of lying there in misery helps. But it's hard.
Social anxiety -> loneliness -> generalized anxiety/depression
When depression is just realism, one doesn't really want to get out of it, it would just be faking. The only solution would be to fix what makes us depressed. But that's not always possible.
Good Things 1. Healthy body/mind 2. Healthy relationship with ourself. 3. Healthy relationship with others. 4 Practicing joyful things. 5. Don't obsess with our unhappiness. 6. Don't obsess with the problems of the world.
TMS works for me, but I need to pay attention to my inner dialogue. The feelings come back from time to time especially when work is stressful. It can start spiral down.
I find it frustrating that in this country we shame and blame the people who suffer from insomnia. However there has been studies done across the pond that found that a number of people who have suffered chronic child abuse have damaged lymphatic systems. So many people cannot sleep because the very system that controls it was harmed by what was done to them. For over a decade I did everything I was told I needed to do to sleep and it did not work. I just wish that the blame and shame would stop because it is just another layer of abuse put on us.
I have severe depression for more then 30 years,i am not living anymore,i simply survive.I don't feel joy anymore,i just want to be alone. I am eating once a day,i bearly sleep.I don't have any support off my family our children. I just feel like a robot.I related to all 6 off them.I feel dead inside.
I’m all of these. No wonder trying to get better seems so overwhelming.
Exciting video, A year ago I took the no contact route, well i wouldnt say it didnt go well, but i missed her and sometimes you have to leave your comfort zone and go for what you want, Without knowing and having a huge ego, we might actually miss out on our soul mate all in the name of not settling for less, I know who i am, and at the same time i know what i want for me, so i did all i could to get her back, and I must say, it was the best decision i have ever made, we have been together again for over 7 months, yes marriage isnt always rosey, but i am lucky to have her, just as she is to have me, we compliment each other
This kind of felt like a reductive video for those with mild/moderate depression. True treatment-resistant depression is far more misunderstood and debilitating; and we desperately need more research and advocacy on the subject.
Overview of the reasons stated for chronic depression (with a bit of clinical language thrown in and relevant modalities of therapy that relate to the change mechanisms): 1) Those with an unhealthy body that cannot sustain a healthy brain. -Address via improved sleep and exercise and removal of all non-prescription drugs (Any behavioural therapy) 1.5) Those who don't eat enough or eat too much. This is because without calories you will withdraw energy from the brain, similar if you eat too much, to digest this you drain energy from the brain towards digestion. -Fix by regulating food intake 2) Those with very negative self-talk and abusive relationship with self -Address with cognitive defusion (ACT) or thought challenging (CBT) 3) Those with a lack of felt connection, people who put up walls and keeps people at a distance. -Embracing vulnerability and engaging with people vulnerably 4) Those without any enjoyable/valuable activities -Values guided/joy guided behavioural activation (ACT/CBT) 5) Those with hyper focus on chasing happiness -Accept that happiness is transient, engage more in the present moment without constantly trying to "hold onto" moments of happiness (ACT). 6) Those overwhelmed by external factors (the world, politics, etc). -Analyse zones of control, focus on what is within your realm of control and try to not invest your emotional care into things outside of that realm (CBT). From personal clinical experience I would also say: Those with other other undiagnosed or undaddressed issues (often ADHD, Autism, PTSD, and thyroid issues) often struggle with "chronic depression/anxiety" because there's a cause to those problems that hasn't been dealt with.
I am in my 60s, and I am now trying to start over with my life. Any one else out there who is facing ithis successfully? I feel my age separates myself from others experiences who are younger than me. I am a cautionary tale. Take care before your life slips away from you.
I’m doing everything I can to get myself out of depression. I was constantly working out, sleeping well, I took my meds that treat both of my ADHD and MDD, but it just kept getting worse. Now I’m literally in bed all day and can’t bring myself to do basic things like eating. I hate it so much because I know very well that life is short and that I wouldn’t be able to recover every moment I waste doing nothing.
I don't even try anymore. My soul died years ago.
Its the fear of failure and being unproductive and not wanting to do anything about it at all, i am losing myself over this every single day not keeping up with the fast moving world. This honestly just makes me feel worse knowing that i have full will to change this but still not wanting to.
Thanks for this video... ❤ hugs to everyone going through depression hope we get out of it...
#6. Spent my psych session last night talking about my general existentialism and Nihilism right now and how I am opting out of reality in my down time as a coping strategy. “For right now” she said that is fine and is a “skilful choice!”. It’s not depression this time - it is plain existential dread. 😟
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