March 21st 4:23pm 54 Good Form Wim Hof Push Ups

Omg feeling amazing afterward.

Was feeling emotional yesterday. Crying for no good reason. My life is pretty amazing. I have an awesome family. Great friends. Appreciative of my YouTube followers commenting on my killing myself video yesterday. Grateful for my Facebook friends liking my posts and commenting.

Yet deep sadness and tears emerge from my soul. It doesn't make full sense. Only that I'm not living in the full expression of my true purpose in life. I'm not serving others with my God given talents.

The Devil comes to meet me and gives me thoughts that my Gifts are worthless. That what I love to do doesn't add value to anyone. I could never be paid to be fulfilled, happy, or joyful. That I'm destined to live a life constantly filled with feelings of misery and sorrow, even though my life is fairly neutral, or could be another person's greatest dream life.

I'm grateful for this YouTube channel because I feel I can express myself freely without being judged. Also that I'm not negatively impacting others. I hate sharing negative emotions, especially when I feel the emotions are not warranted. There is no reason to feel depressed. Except for repressing and suppressing emotions. That's why I'm using YouTube as an outlet to help compost these emotions and hopefully transmute and transform them into some form of useful action.

I want to achieve all my goals and remove doubt, blame, fear, worry, overwhelment, etc.

Earlier today I was letting the struggles of life and anxieties get to me. Feeling financial pressures and stress affect me. Not living fully in the joy of the present moment.

These Wim Hof Push Ups really helped.

Was saying to myself, "Let the weak say, I am strong!".